Hi guys – it’s Hannah here.
Mother of a twenty month old and growing another (eek!)
Just when we thought ‘normality’ had started to make itself a little welcome again, it’s back to basics. Four weeks of lockdown can bring up all sorts of negative thoughts, so I’m here to spread a little perspective (and hopefully put a small smile on that face!)
If you’re reading this, you’re most probably on the same wavelength as me. All that we took for granted was beginning to be (kind of, sorta, a little bit) ours once more and hope was finally around the corner. I know it may seem bleak as Thursday draws close, but I want to remind you that: true happiness is what we have and where we are.
I know it sounds cliché but when people ask me about the best moments in my life they obviously are significant events like my wedding and childbirth (although I may not have said that at the time, gulp), but there’s also those little moments like watching my daughter’s face light up when I ask if she wants to crayon, or waiting for that ‘mama’ first thing in the morning when she’s ready for milk and a cuddle.
There have been plenty of weeks over the last few months where tears, tantrums, dull grey days and exhaustion have got the better of me. I have cried, locked myself in the toilet, and cursed under my breath more times than I can shake a piece of Lego at. But regardless I look back and realise how much my child (and I) have grown, flourished, and bonded in such a short space of time.
2020 has undoubtedly made us feel like bad parents, but honestly nothing could be further from the truth. If there’s one thing this virus has taught us, it’s that to get past this storm, we have to go through it. The same has gone for our mum guilt and hormones (sigh) but here we are with a light at the end of the tunnel. The pause on ‘normality & routine’ has meant that quieter time has been a valuable opportunity for us to make peace with being the ‘good enough’ mothers we already are. No fancy frills needed.
So here we are again, a little saddened and deflated, but by god are we stronger and wiser than we were before, and if we’ve got through it once we’ll get through it again.
Get up, show up, and never ever give up guys.
One day this will all be a distant memory – now grab a hot coffee and pull on those positive pants, we’re going to need them.